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Rabbit Holes and Wise Old Crows

3.5'x5.5' art quilt, titled; Rabbit Holes and Wise Old Crows
This is on my design wall and nearing finish. Just a bit of hand quilting left, detailing the rabbits and then putting the binding on. This is a large one for me...just over 3 ft. x 5 ft.  It is a fabric collage but after seeing it I am inspired to create a painted artquilt version.  Probably not identical but along the same lines and size.  

This piece was inspired by my ongoing exploration of alternative media/"truther" information and conspiracies.  I always find that the deeper I go down a rabbit hole it either unravels itself or unfolds in a spiritual direction.  This age offers much to explore and since creativity has always been the vehicle through which I engage such explorations, I think this piece is a great reflection of that.  The appearance of the crow was totally unexpected as I worked.  I knew I wanted to do a piece that reflected my explorations, so rabbit holes seemed a fun theme to work with.  The appearance of the crow emerged along with an awareness of my ability to trust my own intuition about which information/perspectives to embrace and which to discard. 

The rabbit holes I was exploring as I worked on this piece led me to the binary and trinary nature of two different sentient oils (black goo).  One, the trinary, organic to this planet.  The other, binary, alien to this planet (probably from meteorites).  Understanding the information provided by German scientist Harald Kautz-Vella on this subject tied together decades of my research and study into the nature of true spirituality and it's seeming foundation in duality. Fascinating!  Good and Evil fully explained and it's sources revealed beyond mythology and narrative.  I love it when that happens.  Give Harald a listen on youtube if your interest is peaked.  His interview by Randy Maugans is especially powerful though I have listened to all english interviews published on youtube and learned a lot from each. ( a couple of links at the bottom of this post)

Anyway, I will post this artquilt again when completed, but for now I am enjoying my newly installed 20 ft. design wall and just wanted to share what I've got on it today.  Love having a fully functional studio after so many years of making do and moving from place to place. I see lotsa new work in my future and expect to have a blast creating it. Off to Houston in a couple of days for the International Quilt Festival to amp up the inspiration level and see what new goodies I can bring home with me.




Boo, Thanks, Merry & Happy...

The holi-daze season is just around the corner so I thought this might be a good time to take a moment and, well, address a few things once and for all. Besides, having a post I can simply reference each year around this time might be a good thing. I mean, if I address all the issues right out of the gate, maybe people might stop with the assumptions that tend to arise this time of year and actually take the time to know a little bit more about me and my choices...at least with regard to the holi-daze. Probably not, but a gal can dream.

First let me say I wholly support everyone's choice to celebrate and worship in whatever way they choose.  I see it as a reflection of the depth of person's commitment to truth and living in alignment with it individually.  As I respect that in others I simply would appreciate the same.

As for Halloween.... I like it because of the candy. If I hand it out to the kids that ring my bell I can get away with eating at least a third of it myself. Yep. It's that simple. I only buy the good stuff, not the cheap bag of assorted who-knows-what....because, like I said, I eat from the same stash. Oh...and for the record, yes, I studied and know all of the historic and esoteric associations connected to it and these are simply not part of the aspects I engage.  Besides, it's almost the only time I see kids out and about, running around having fun and acting like kids anymore, since the digital age has en-tranced them to such a staggering degree. So, yep, no devil worship going on here...just getting my sweet tooth on and enjoying kids playing dress-up.

As for Thanksgiving.... I like it because of the food!  That's it.  No Indian/Pilgrim exchange programming going on here.  It's the food!  Turkey and dressing with cranberry sauce, sweet potatoes, green bean casserole and spaghetti...  Yes, in my family we do spaghetti. My grandma always had spaghetti because my grandpa was full blooded Italian and so there was always spaghetti at Thanksgiving. Homemade spaghetti...none of that jar stuff. And I love having my kids and grandkids all under the same roof at one time. This is what I am thankful for...food and family. 

As for Christmas.... I don't do it! Plain and simple. Haven't for decades!  It is the one holiday I treat as the pentacle of my spiritual awakening and I simply refuse to participate in any way shape or form.  The religious programming connected to this day has become so abhorrent to me that I can no longer smile, nod or in anyway allow my silence to let others think it is even remotely a part of my life.  While I haven't celebrated this day in decades, for the most part I haven't spoken out about it so as to not offend those who do.  Well, I'm done with that. If you are offended, that is about you...not me.  I have spiritually awakened to such a degree that I see all of religion as offensive... but not for the reasons you might think.  If you love me, if you consider yourself my friend, please read on.  Because I cherish each and every one of you! 

My life has been dedicated to spiritual awakening.  I have researched and dug deeply into the history of all religions and I can guarantee, if anyone took the time to do this on their own, without the religious programers interference, they would not only walk away from this holy-daze, they would run from all associations to it and the religions that reinforce it. But be careful...true spiritual awakening will unplug you from most things in this world....especially the God cults!  And lest you think I do not align with a power greater than myself, a higher power, so-to-speak,  The Source of all that truly is...well I do!  It is this Source that has awakened me to such a degree that I know It is not the 'God' of this world which Christianity worshipped, celebrated and promoted through the greatest marketing program ever fashioned. Do what you want to with that, but understand that I am not opposed to your choice to believe the things you are told.  Your programing on all fronts is safe. Religious, governmental, financial, educational, legal, national and corporate programs are alive and well and I consider everyone's freedom to join in them to whatever degree they wish.  I will leave this subject with one last bit of information....a piece of truth that, upon discovery, shocked me to my core. Shocked me awake! Christianity is the light aspect of Satanism.  Yes, Satanism.  Satanism is a real and practiced religion, disguised and woven in to the very belief structure that seemingly opposes it, namely Christianity.

The tenants of Satanism are dualism; light and dark, good and evil.  Satanism believes in good and evil and it promotes the aspects of both. It literally feeds off of the conflict between these two aspects and therefore promotes a 'light' side and a 'dark' side.  Anyone associated with any Christian religion is simply practicing the light side of satanic worship unaware. It is a blood cult of ritual sacrifice and has duped good-hearted souls into a trance so deep they worship the image of a man nailed to a cross without questioning it.  They symbolically drink his blood and eat his body in 'communion' with a ritual blood sacrifice.  They bought the lie that he died for their sins when in truth the Christ message is quite the opposite. That we are without sin...that we are not our body! It was painfully difficult to awaken to the truth of how Christianity was hijacked.  But this is the truth to which I was guided by the true Source of all that is!  For decades now I have been shown how deep this programing runs and how devoutly Satanism is practiced.  Satanism is at the helm of not only our churches, it covertly runs our government, our educational and financial systems, our corporate structure and our legal system.  Good and evil are it's tenants. Light and dark are what it feeds on....literally/energetically!  The Satanist in our world are indeed devout. More devout that any 'Christian' you can think of or name.  And you'd be surprised to discover that those at the very top of that structure know this...and are practicing Satanists as they don the robes of the light aspect of their one true religion.  

You shake your head and wonder what this world is coming to. We all do. Some of us have just figured it out.  With never ending wars, murders, mass killings, child abduction, sex trafficking and pedophilia, governmental and corporate corruption and the list goes on, it is easy to see...for those with eyes to see.  Satanic devotion, the practice of good vs. evil is the foundation of all that is dominating this world.  Ending it begins with our willingness to awaken from the deep trance of religious programming and step into true spiritual freedom.  I have done this. I am here if anyone wants to explore their own awakening....  I do not judge. I once believed deeply in the very things I choose to now expose.  Belief is not knowing. Belief is a program. The miracles in your life need not be attached to a program.  The miracles you have experienced belong to the Source of all....and that is quite simply not who you have been led to believe in. It is time to give credit where credit is due and awaken from this false light program. I have numerous resources and information to back up these things I speak of. My door is open to any who want to truly seek.  The choice not to is yours. Just know, that choice is what keeps the program alive and well and keeps the Satanists safe.  This is why I do not celebrate Christmas. This is why I have chosen to risk offending those who do not appreciate the gift of my transparency!  

As for New Years Eve... I'm simply too old for that shit! LOL! 

With love and true joy I thank those of you who read this whole post.  I will be celebrating the future in further transparency and invite any who would like to do the same to join me.  Feel free to pass this post on to any you think might be interested.  If you hate it and all that it stands for, consider for a moment the very real nature of something called Cognitive Dissonance.  Google it if you don't know what it means.  It held me in its grasp for quite a while.  But there is freedom from it if you want and the rewards are great indeed.

Happy holi-daze!


Same Rabbit, Deeper Hole

Detail image from The Dream Thief art-quilt
My last post addressed the concept of 'them' vs. 'us' and how that perceptual position sets me up for failure.  As long as I am running the 'them' vs. 'us' program, 'they' have me...or should I say I have me!  Caught up in yet another illusory tangle, I have halted further expansion of my awareness.  My spiritual awakening is spinning in circles and I am going nowhere fast....I say fast because there are more 'them' vs. 'us' scenarios 'out there' than anything! The only thing more distracting than that is the belief that there is a legitimate 'out there' in the first place!  

My own expansion of awareness is largely aided by introspection and creative energy as I tend to get prompts or nudges from an inner aspect while I work.  For the last few weeks a thought has been niggling at me the way these nudges tend to do.  The thought is...What if 'they' are actually aiding us rather than working against 'us' to destroy 'us'?  What if the end justifies the means?  What if at least some of those "secret" programs and those behind them that we "conspiracy theorists" have uncovered as covert operations are actually in place to serve humanity?  Hmmmm...

I have long been aware that at the very top of this wild spiritual projection of light into form (which is what this dimension is) there is only one!  And, tag....we're it...fractalized expressions of wholeness.  Therefore, it stands to reason that at the highest perspective, we are both the 'them' and 'us'!  We are literally shaking ourselves awake from a dense, scary dream of form with an expertly designed individual and collective feedback loop disguised as 'them' vs. 'us'...disguised as 'out there'?  The 'them' 'out there' is like a physical feed-back-loop reflection of what we need to experience, perfectly paraphrased (based on our most current expression) to show us who and where we are spiritually, so that we can make the next 'right' decision to further our individual and collective expansion.  Ok...that's a mouthful, but stay with me here.

I'm not spouting some esoteric, religious based philosophy, though aspects of this are threaded through many such teachings.  I am however suggesting that if I begin to look at everything around me, every situation and experience as an opportunity to see a 'paraphrased reflection' of me and thus respond or react differently....say with compassion and awareness of the WHOLEness that I actually am, might my experiences and my awareness shift dramatically?

I come from a decades old practice of not making the reflection/dream/illusory world 'real'.  Seeing it for what it is and responding through the spiritual perspective of non-attachment.  This has worked wonders in fostering my awakening.  If however I see everything as some aspect of myself, loving me enough to express whatever darkness it needs to express, in whatever manner it deems necessary in order to show me my lack of awareness, then what happens if I respond differently to it?  I don't know, but this idea invites a huge shift.  

Imagine gratitude for the elite families and the secret programs that have oppressed and abused humanity for eons... not for gain, but in hopes that we might one day step into our sovereignty and raise the consciousness of this realm to such a degree that we all, the whole of us transcend the entrapment we have unknowingly imposed in an effort to stir ourselves awake.  For me it's an idea worth playing with.  It's a track I am willing to explore.  If only in theory, if only in a perceptual sense, if I see everything around me as an expression from me, for me, for the purpose of feeding back to myself an opportunity to know myself on a larger scale by responding differently, what change may come?  What expansion might I then experience?  If I see that the 'good' guys and the 'evil'-doers are in on this whole thing together, how might that shift my awareness. How might that expand my consciousness?  

Might the game change incredibly if I am to sharpen my skills enough to recognize who is playing the role of the trickster or the destroyer?  Then, rather than project my unwanted darkness back on them, I simply say...I see you, and I refuse to lose myself on a bunny trail by buying into your role!  In not raging or warring against 'them' but choosing instead to expose/pull the mask off of them so that all can see the game being played in order to shake ourself awake, are't my energies better spent? If, in my role as the exposer, I express compassion instead of hatred for the nasty role they played how might that effect me?  How might that expand my heart?  These are ideas I am going to play with as I continue to dive into the depths of the 'evil-doers' and their role in this third dimensional, holographic construct most call reality.  At the very least I will be creatively inspired, and that always leads me to a new level of personal expansion and awareness.


The Dream Thief

Design wall (detail image), The Dream Thief.  A new art-quilt underway.
Here is a detail image from a new art-quilt I have underway.  This piece is titled The Dream Thief and it speaks to the bunny trails and rabbit holes that swirl around the 'awakening' community as we explore this dream we call life.  Mainstreamers call us conspiracy theorists, alt-reality junkies, etc.  In truth, most folks simply call us nuts, but it's okay...cause we get why this is.  Most folks simply can't see what we see. Largely because they don't look where we look, but that's another story.  We know that it's just not their time...and we are mostly cool with that.  We also know that we are the mystics, the seekers, the enlightened, or as I like to think of us...the awakening minority.  

This 'awakening minority' is simply a group within the larger society that is focused differently.  We are 'focused on'/'paying attention to' an aspect of this 'dream we call life' from a different vantage point.  We therefore experience this illusory/holographic/simulation/construct which most call reality, quite differently! Rather than focused only in the mainstream perspective that we are all conditioned/programmed to see, we 'awoke' to a larger perspective. It's an unavoidable awakening.  It's just that some come to it earlier than others.  That's us.  And we are no better or worse than those with limited perspectives. We were each part of that group until this awakening hit us...like a ton of bricks, in some cases. But, as they say...somebody has to do it, and I am a part of those 'doing it'.  Doing what, you ask?  That hundredth monkey thing!  You know, effecting the collective consciousness by focusing our individual consciousness away from the programming. If anyone ever asks...that's what I truly do 'for a living'!  Your welcome!  And I can say that because my own gratitude goes out to those who did this long before I did so that I could eventually join in. It's the most fulfilling role I have ever played in this matrix game of life. 

Within this, 'awakening minority' however, we are not all alike.  We are not all focused on the same thing and even where we are, we have many different perceptions.  Lumping us all together is only easy for those within the mainstream collective.  That is one of the way's you know who is still operating largely from their conditioning/programming.  They lump us 'weirdos' all together.  Those in the awakening minority see our subtle differences.  We also see the trolls or operatives who pretend to be us so that they can disrupt the inevitable awakening we are all moving toward.  We are okay with these guys too....well, not exactly o-kay with them, but we 'get' it.  It is their job.  (And, hint-hint, mainstreamers are the reason their jobs exist....which is to act outrageous as they appear to be us in order to keep you from listening...and waking up too!) But we know they are the highly controlled/programmed within the mainstream machine.  And this mainstream machine is terribly afraid of this awakening.  But back to The Dream Thief and my inspiration for this new art-quilt.

In my own awakening I have personally come to realize that the further anyone moves away from a 'them vs. us' mentality the more awake they become.  And unfortunately, like the larger aspect of society, the 'awakening minority' is steeped in a them vs. us mentality!  We just have different them's and us's.  So much so that it doesn't even matter that we can see beyond the mainstream conditioning/programming.  We in the awakening minority know that politics, religion, media, finance, education, law, military, and the corporate arena are completely co-opted.  Mainstreamers don't really get this or they'd unplug like we have.  But, as long as anyone...anyone... is caught in a 'them vs. us' trap...they are trapped!  It matters little if one is trapped in a different level of consciousness than most...trapped is trapped.  If you are out to 'get', 'bring down', 'destroy', or 'stop' anyone with malice or contempt in your heart you are lost in a good vs. evil script and you are trapped.  If you want 'them' to "get what's coming to them", you are trapped.  If you take pride in a 'warrior' stance you are trapped.  If, on the other hand, you recognize these lower vibrational aspects and do nothing to address them, you are also trapped.  Avoid the trap!  How, you ask?  Well, here is the way I play it...

The two biggest reasons I see for this 'them vs. us' trap, no matter what level of consciousness I have attained, is 1.) My belief in the reality of 'form' itself, as life.  Form is not life!  And 2.) the idea that I need anyone else to change in order to effect my own liberation.  Any belief structure that reinforces the idea that matter ultimately matters can easily land me in a them vs. us mentality.  And anytime I think I need to convince anyone other than myself of something in order to expand my awareness/escape the matrix or facilitate further awakening, I am halting my own awakening.  

All form/matter/density is an 'experience' I engage with consciously which in turn affects my spiritual essence.  That's it! It is not who I am!  My body (for example) is not me any more than anyone else's body is them.  We are infinite, eternal is-ness that was never created and can never be destroyed!  We are spirit itself!  However, in this physical expression, my body as well as anyone else's is an opportunity for the real me (spiritual essence) to engage consciously with form/matter in as highly a conscious manner as possible!  This, and this alone is a perspective that, when applied to all form/matter, serves me (and my ongoing awakening) best.  Therefore, I attempt to remember this and treat all form/matter respectfully and consciously.  This advances me as an individual regardless if anyone else 'gets' this or not!  At least this is how I play the game.  It works for me and has continually advanced and awakened me in ways I could never have imagined.  

I don't worry about being fooled by others playing the game of life differently than I play it. I don't worry about falling for some 'conspiracy theory' that turned out to be foolishness.  It's all foolishness- this experience is the fool's journey!  That's what we are here to do.... And I certainly don't worry about the fate of those deliberately causing harm to the dream/illusion/hologram/simulation/construct we call 'reality'.  I treat them with the highest level of consciousness as well!  That, in my case, means exposing what I see as I see it, calling it for what it is and acting accordingly in the highest level of consciousness awareness I have.  If that means assisting in putting them in a position to not do harm then I participate in that without malice!!!  And with compassion!!!  It is foolish to think that compassion stops us from appropriate action.  This way of being/living has afforded me what I consider to be the most valuable aspect in this 'game of life'....an ever expanding freedom from fear.

I believe freedom from fear is the end game.  When we have mastered freedom from fear we are enlightened/awakened/alive! With freedom from fear we no longer see a 'them vs. us' world...because we get that it's all us! So we treat them and us with integrity, discernment, compassion and responsibility!   Fear is mastered when one completely realizes they can never be destroyed.  When I embraced my eternal nature and saw that I was not this limited body consciousness, I was free to play in the matrix in any way I desired and in so doing expand my freedom from fear.  My favorite game is the expansion of personal awareness, which undoes fear.  I love undoing my fear! I do this primarily through creative energy and exposing myself to the advanced awareness of others. I take in their awareness, run it past my own, keep what sticks and let the rest go.  It works for me.  Find what works for you....and don't let  the 'them vs. us' trap steal your dream!  


In Memoriam

This art quilt is titled In Memoriam
Though just recently quilted, this art quilt imagery was created the year following the loss of my father and my husband who passed away within a day of one another four years ago. Working on this piece was my way of expressing and processing the loss of the two most important men in my life.  The gray pallet that the woman figure is cast in frames the two colorful roses which represent the lives of these men that I so loved.  The sadness in the figures eyes reflects the simultaneous widowhood my mother and I found ourselves sharing.  


Creative energy is a great vehicle for processing deeply held thoughts and emotions.  I have always used creativity to explore and express my life.  It seemed only fitting to create a tribute piece to memorialize these beloved men.  This piece hangs in my studio and each time I see it I feel surrounded by the supportive and loving energy of my father, my late husband and my mother. 


Key To Awareness

Art quilt 30"x30" Key To Awareness
I decided to add a simple black border to this piece.  The previous post, Works In Progress, shares the inspiration for it and my thoughts on the subject of true awareness.....(balanced awakening at the level of heart, mind and will!).  I like the way this piece turned out and it was fun to mix fused collage work with drawing directly on the fabric. I also like the way the fractured, mosaic-like background (upper) dissolved into a less rigid and more organic free-floating background (lower).  This adds to the message that 'becoming aware' is a process that differs greatly from learning.  Anyway, I'm already back in the studio working on some new pieces and moving in a completely different direction inspired by Japanese Boro work.   We are off to Chicago soon and I wanted to take some hand work to do on the drive so I have put a few pieces together to stitch on. Just wanted to post this finished piece before we leave.   


Works In Progress

Key To Awareness. This work in progress will be an art-quilt speaking to awakening at the level of heart, mind and will for  achieving balanced awareness.

We are all works in progress. Because I use the creative process to explore my shifts in consciousness and express my own levels of awareness, I thought I'd post what's unfolding on my design wall right now.  This work in progress, once completed, will speak to true awareness, which arises from awakening at the levels of heart, mind and will!  I have learned that until one is awakened at all three levels, imbalance is demonstrated in a variety of ways. When these 'ways' show up in political arenas we call people bleeding heart liberals, fundamentalist conservatives, religious fanatics, headstrong rebels or strong willed activists.   Rather than moving in true awareness, individuals are often caught up and acting on this or that belief; a word which at it's etymological root means 'unknown'.  Once truly awake, wide awake, on all three levels awareness ensues and peace prevails....first within the individual, and thereby eventually in the collective. Harmony, cooperation and creativity in every arena abounds.  This is because through balanced awareness, the heart leads the mind which then formulates and carries out the thoughts and ideas that guide one's personal will (actions). Unless awakened at all three levels chaos leads the way...for the individual, and thereby the collective. As I look around the world today I see this imbalance reflected 'out there' and so I seek the source of it within me....and heal it there. This is the gift awareness brings.  It doesn't allow me to strike out at the reflection or believe it to be any more than a reflection. 

Awareness is huge! It is so much bigger than the knowing that comes from learning, assessing, thinking or believing. For decades I have shaped my spirituality around the practice of reaching for ever higher levels of awareness.  I turn over every rock I am guided to explore in order to undo a belief or shift a perspective. Uncommon, unpopular rocks, even rocks considered ridiculous are continuously crossing my path providing incredible insight. Through this practice I have come to realize that when I awaken from everything I think I know, I will only be at the beginning of complete awareness.  Fortunately the process itself deepens my peace and moves me into more and more love as it alters my personal experience of 'reality'.

We are all less than fully awake at one level or another.  It has never been more demonstrated than in our world today; a world desperately out of balance.  As I reach for my own balance,  art is my activism. This work in progress is the sign I metaphorically carry. It is not against anything...it is however for us all! 


Introspective Perspective

We live in a fluid experience, not a "linear reality".  Once one understands that, deep down in their bones, they can play in the experience, revel in it and truly enjoy it.  They are free from being shaped by it or victimized by it.  Until then they will just keep pointing 'out there' and complaining about what's wrong.  This is both a collective and individual truth.  I, for one, work on the individual level and then share what I find with the collective. I do both through my art and writing.  The collective can respond or not. Either way, I move toward an experience I prefer.  No one taught me this. I didn't find it in a book, a classroom or in some deep state of meditation.   I found it from not doing this and realizing that didn't work out so well.  So... more than three decades ago I stopped looking and pointing 'out' and started seriously looking and pointing 'in', then deeply exploring what I found there.  This is the way I do life...and I love it!  How do you do life?


This New Blog and My New Name

Something Fishy: hand-painted, whole-cloth art quilt
If this piece looks familiar, that's because this image is used in the header from my original blog.  I always struggled with that blog because of my decision to share my artwork without sharing the fullness of the places my artwork sprang from. This rendered me a little schizophrenic each time I sat down to post.  My love for the role creative energy plays in my expansion experiences, the synchronicity and intuitive nudges that shape my life, and the rabbit holes that have awakened me have become more and more reflective in my artwork.....and I'd really love sharing more about how that unfolds!

As for my new name....  When I married last year I changed my last name to Harmon.  An amazing artist in his own right, My new husband, Mike has called me Storey since we met four years ago, so it felt really natural to go from Susan Storey to Storey Harmon.  I love the way this honors my late husband, Phil.  He brought so much to my life and supported my art career whole-heartedly.   Since that blog was under my previous name, and I have also changed my website url to storeyharmon.com, (which now includes Mike's amazing sculptures), a new blog seemed a good idea as well.  Add that to the fact that we are renovating a new live/work studio in a new town and well...welcome to my new life!