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The Dream Thief

Design wall (detail image), The Dream Thief.  A new art-quilt underway.
Here is a detail image from a new art-quilt I have underway.  This piece is titled The Dream Thief and it speaks to the bunny trails and rabbit holes that swirl around the 'awakening' community as we explore this dream we call life.  Mainstreamers call us conspiracy theorists, alt-reality junkies, etc.  In truth, most folks simply call us nuts, but it's okay...cause we get why this is.  Most folks simply can't see what we see. Largely because they don't look where we look, but that's another story.  We know that it's just not their time...and we are mostly cool with that.  We also know that we are the mystics, the seekers, the enlightened, or as I like to think of us...the awakening minority.  

This 'awakening minority' is simply a group within the larger society that is focused differently.  We are 'focused on'/'paying attention to' an aspect of this 'dream we call life' from a different vantage point.  We therefore experience this illusory/holographic/simulation/construct which most call reality, quite differently! Rather than focused only in the mainstream perspective that we are all conditioned/programmed to see, we 'awoke' to a larger perspective. It's an unavoidable awakening.  It's just that some come to it earlier than others.  That's us.  And we are no better or worse than those with limited perspectives. We were each part of that group until this awakening hit us...like a ton of bricks, in some cases. But, as they say...somebody has to do it, and I am a part of those 'doing it'.  Doing what, you ask?  That hundredth monkey thing!  You know, effecting the collective consciousness by focusing our individual consciousness away from the programming. If anyone ever asks...that's what I truly do 'for a living'!  Your welcome!  And I can say that because my own gratitude goes out to those who did this long before I did so that I could eventually join in. It's the most fulfilling role I have ever played in this matrix game of life. 

Within this, 'awakening minority' however, we are not all alike.  We are not all focused on the same thing and even where we are, we have many different perceptions.  Lumping us all together is only easy for those within the mainstream collective.  That is one of the way's you know who is still operating largely from their conditioning/programming.  They lump us 'weirdos' all together.  Those in the awakening minority see our subtle differences.  We also see the trolls or operatives who pretend to be us so that they can disrupt the inevitable awakening we are all moving toward.  We are okay with these guys too....well, not exactly o-kay with them, but we 'get' it.  It is their job.  (And, hint-hint, mainstreamers are the reason their jobs exist....which is to act outrageous as they appear to be us in order to keep you from listening...and waking up too!) But we know they are the highly controlled/programmed within the mainstream machine.  And this mainstream machine is terribly afraid of this awakening.  But back to The Dream Thief and my inspiration for this new art-quilt.

In my own awakening I have personally come to realize that the further anyone moves away from a 'them vs. us' mentality the more awake they become.  And unfortunately, like the larger aspect of society, the 'awakening minority' is steeped in a them vs. us mentality!  We just have different them's and us's.  So much so that it doesn't even matter that we can see beyond the mainstream conditioning/programming.  We in the awakening minority know that politics, religion, media, finance, education, law, military, and the corporate arena are completely co-opted.  Mainstreamers don't really get this or they'd unplug like we have.  But, as long as anyone...anyone... is caught in a 'them vs. us' trap...they are trapped!  It matters little if one is trapped in a different level of consciousness than most...trapped is trapped.  If you are out to 'get', 'bring down', 'destroy', or 'stop' anyone with malice or contempt in your heart you are lost in a good vs. evil script and you are trapped.  If you want 'them' to "get what's coming to them", you are trapped.  If you take pride in a 'warrior' stance you are trapped.  If, on the other hand, you recognize these lower vibrational aspects and do nothing to address them, you are also trapped.  Avoid the trap!  How, you ask?  Well, here is the way I play it...

The two biggest reasons I see for this 'them vs. us' trap, no matter what level of consciousness I have attained, is 1.) My belief in the reality of 'form' itself, as life.  Form is not life!  And 2.) the idea that I need anyone else to change in order to effect my own liberation.  Any belief structure that reinforces the idea that matter ultimately matters can easily land me in a them vs. us mentality.  And anytime I think I need to convince anyone other than myself of something in order to expand my awareness/escape the matrix or facilitate further awakening, I am halting my own awakening.  

All form/matter/density is an 'experience' I engage with consciously which in turn affects my spiritual essence.  That's it! It is not who I am!  My body (for example) is not me any more than anyone else's body is them.  We are infinite, eternal is-ness that was never created and can never be destroyed!  We are spirit itself!  However, in this physical expression, my body as well as anyone else's is an opportunity for the real me (spiritual essence) to engage consciously with form/matter in as highly a conscious manner as possible!  This, and this alone is a perspective that, when applied to all form/matter, serves me (and my ongoing awakening) best.  Therefore, I attempt to remember this and treat all form/matter respectfully and consciously.  This advances me as an individual regardless if anyone else 'gets' this or not!  At least this is how I play the game.  It works for me and has continually advanced and awakened me in ways I could never have imagined.  

I don't worry about being fooled by others playing the game of life differently than I play it. I don't worry about falling for some 'conspiracy theory' that turned out to be foolishness.  It's all foolishness- this experience is the fool's journey!  That's what we are here to do.... And I certainly don't worry about the fate of those deliberately causing harm to the dream/illusion/hologram/simulation/construct we call 'reality'.  I treat them with the highest level of consciousness as well!  That, in my case, means exposing what I see as I see it, calling it for what it is and acting accordingly in the highest level of consciousness awareness I have.  If that means assisting in putting them in a position to not do harm then I participate in that without malice!!!  And with compassion!!!  It is foolish to think that compassion stops us from appropriate action.  This way of being/living has afforded me what I consider to be the most valuable aspect in this 'game of life'....an ever expanding freedom from fear.

I believe freedom from fear is the end game.  When we have mastered freedom from fear we are enlightened/awakened/alive! With freedom from fear we no longer see a 'them vs. us' world...because we get that it's all us! So we treat them and us with integrity, discernment, compassion and responsibility!   Fear is mastered when one completely realizes they can never be destroyed.  When I embraced my eternal nature and saw that I was not this limited body consciousness, I was free to play in the matrix in any way I desired and in so doing expand my freedom from fear.  My favorite game is the expansion of personal awareness, which undoes fear.  I love undoing my fear! I do this primarily through creative energy and exposing myself to the advanced awareness of others. I take in their awareness, run it past my own, keep what sticks and let the rest go.  It works for me.  Find what works for you....and don't let  the 'them vs. us' trap steal your dream!  


In Memoriam

This art quilt is titled In Memoriam
Though just recently quilted, this art quilt imagery was created the year following the loss of my father and my husband who passed away within a day of one another four years ago. Working on this piece was my way of expressing and processing the loss of the two most important men in my life.  The gray pallet that the woman figure is cast in frames the two colorful roses which represent the lives of these men that I so loved.  The sadness in the figures eyes reflects the simultaneous widowhood my mother and I found ourselves sharing.  


Creative energy is a great vehicle for processing deeply held thoughts and emotions.  I have always used creativity to explore and express my life.  It seemed only fitting to create a tribute piece to memorialize these beloved men.  This piece hangs in my studio and each time I see it I feel surrounded by the supportive and loving energy of my father, my late husband and my mother.